Craziness

Man, I feel like my life is out of control. Homeschool seems to be going downhill. L is not willing to work on even the simplest of tasks. It takes hours and a TON of self-control on my part to get anything done with her. M is picking up on her attitude and I often hear the same phrases parroted out of his mouth. Then, there's my attitude that needs checking as well. Some days I found teaching a classroom full of kindergarteners much, much easier than teaching my two at home. L is definitely showing the pre-teen view of life and everything seems to be my fault. I'm trying to stay calm, especially when she brings up the past and "how horrible of a mother/teacher I currently am." Glen is struggling with back pain since he fell a few weeks ago.

Scriptures from which I am currently drawing encouragement:

Psalm 18:1-3 -  
I love you, O Lord, my strength.
² The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,
    my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge,
    my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
³ I call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised,
    and I am saved from my enemies.

Psalm 121 -
I lift up my eyes to the hills.
    From where does my help come?
² My help comes from the Lord,
    who made heaven and earth.

³ He will not let your foot be moved;
    he who keeps you will not slumber.
⁴ Behold, he who keeps Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.

⁵ The Lord is your keeper;
    the Lord is your shade on your right hand.
⁶ The sun shall not strike you by day,
    nor the moon by night.

⁷ The Lord will keep you from all evil;
    he will keep your life.
⁸ The Lord will keep
    your going out and your coming in
    from this time forth and forevermore.

Psalm 28:6-8
Blessed be the Lord!
    For he has heard the voice of my pleas for mercy.
⁷ The Lord is my strength and my shield;
    in him my heart trusts, and I am helped;
my heart exults,
    and with my song I give thanks to him.

⁸ The Lord is the strength of his people;
    he is the saving refuge of his anointed.

May He be glorified in my craziness and weakness!