Today's Reading

From my reading of Scripture today:

Psalm 63:1-8
¹O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you;
my flesh faints for you,
as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
²So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary,
beholding your power and glory.
³Because your steadfast love is better than life,
my lips will praise you.
⁴So I will bless you as long as I live;
in your name I will lift up my hands.

⁵My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food,
and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips,
⁶when I remember you upon my bed,
and meditate on you in the watches of the night;
⁷for you have been my help,
and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy.
⁸My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.

The phrase, a dry and thirsty land, really caught my attention. Lately, I've been feeling like a dry and thirsty land, especially in the area of being a Proverbs 31 woman. I feel like I've let my husband down by expecting so much out of him; that I haven't been the supportive wife I should be; that I've not really put forth my best effort in being an efficient housekeeper/cook. I feel like I've let my kids down - that I don't want to homeschool them or spend time with them. I look forward to time when they aren't around....but most of all, I've come to the conclusion that I've let down my Lord - this hurts worst of all! I've skimmed and skimped on my devotional life. I've spent the last week not reading, praying, or studying. I blamed it all on being sick. I've gotten by on the minimal...then Sunday afternoon, I realized my issue was with me not being faithful since God is always faithful. I was the one who choose the dry, thirsty land. I had stopped doing the things God has asked of me. But I remembered His goodness, His faithfulness, His love and care, and, most of all, His forgiveness. And so, today, my soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me!