Struggling with my thoughts

Yes, I'm on vacation. Hanging out with family in Colorado. Yes, it's fun, but when the phone rings out west at 9PM from back east, it is always bad news. Sorrow clouds my vision (as well as my tears) and drowns my heart. My one and only brother passed away from a massive heart attack within the last hour. I don't know what our future plans hold...just feeling at a loss being so far away. Good news is I'm two days closer home.